A year ago today...

A year ago today I lost you. Though I had only known you for about a month I cherished you. I loved you with all that my heart knew how. I counted every day like it was a blessing because you were still alive inside of me.
The day I lost you was the worst day of my life. And every day since then I've tried to move on. I've buried myself in life to avoid reality so I wouldn't have to think about you because thinking about you only makes it hurt more.
There are days where it doesn't even seem real, where I wonder if I dreamed the whole thing up. Were you really ever alive inside of me? Because I don't even remember what it felt like.
Though this has been a constant battle for nearly three years you were my little light of hope in the middle of this darkness. I'm still waiting for the day for you to send your little brother or sister down to fill this void inside of me that I can't seem to make whole.
You are my hope that someday it will happen for me.
You are my hope.
A year ago today I lost you. I promised you that I would never forget.
I never have.
And I never will.