more than a damper on my day

so i don't know if all of you remember my post about writing a book...but i am. i started writing it in june and it was going pretty well up until last week. i have it saved on ryan's computer and on his external hard drive and even on a his little jump drive. i update them every once and while but not everytime i write in my book. well..ryan's computer got a virus so he had to reformat his computer-taking off all the files and what not and putting them on his external hard drive. so on monday i woke up and i had some inspiration. i wanted to write it down before i went into work and forgot. so i went on to the external hard drive and looked up my book. no, i didn't loose it-BUT when i opened it i realized it was an old copy...one from TWO months ago. i looked at how many pages where on this copy and it turns out i lost 20 pages..it may not seem like a lot but when it's 20 pages lost out of 60..it's almost half. i immediately felt nausiated. ryan was at work so i text him bawling my eyes out wanting to know what he did with my book! he was grateful he was at work because at that point i was being completely irrational and who knows what would have happened in the hayes household! i even told my boss if i'm not at work tomorrow and the news talks about an enraged wife killing husband over book..you won't wonder why. you could say i was a little upset...well ryan explained how he moved the files onto his hard drive and it really wasn't his fault. for some reason my book was the only thing that didn't update out of ALL the files. retarded i know! i'm feeling a little frustrated at this point and haven't even felt like writing at all. to me my book is like pictures...it's at such a rough draft stage that i don't remember all that i've written or edited since then..AND i'll never get those pages back! my boss tried making me feel better by saying maybe it's a blessing in disguse and the new pages you write will be even better than the ones before. but at this point i'm not feeling like it...so until furter notice-my book is on hold.